Its wednesday morning and i'm all alone sitting here thinking about you.

Dearest blog, good morning, i feel a little miserable, i don't know why, been feeling this way since yesterday. Perhaps i need my friends around me, and since it is a holiday now, i can't help but feel this way. Anyway, i've not done any homework yet, i'm miserably slow and i have to buy foolscap paper later. Oh well, i better get my work done by today.

Went to rot at home yesterday, kept using the computer and then studied science. I am too proud of myself, finish copying 4 chapters of science, the ones that i didn't listen to in class. I can't help but listen to songs that are rather emotional, maybe that reflects my life. I think, i feel very empty inside, i don't know why. Sometimes i think to myself, if you're still here, how would it have been? Are we really.. really over? i know in my previous post, i said that after that, i will move on, but that was what i said last month too, everyday, i tell myself to move on, but its way too hard, way too difficult. Everything feels empty now, maybe i should mend my broken heart slowly, but i really. can't. help. but. miss. you. so. terribly.

I know you will never see this anymore, but I just wanna say, you've been really good. I saw what i wrote on my foolscap yesterday about you. I remember those times when you would send me home despite the risk of being late, and you would call me to comfort me, and make sure i'm happy before i sleep. But was that all... just a lie? i choose not to believe it, because those were the best memories of you, i will not tear it away just like this. I will keep the best side of you in my heart, and throw away those side where you made me cry so miserably, I will keep you in my heart forever, because you're just the best i ever had.