When everything ain't the same, and we stop to think about the past.

Feel like opening a private blog, cause some things just cannot be written out openly.
Some things when told, cannot be taken back, seriously.
Everything is gone, perhaps another new chapter will begin.
When sometimes we look back into the past and we know it is the past.
Flashbacks start to rewind again.

No mood to blog.
Bye.

School's starting tomorrow, happy or what?
Yesterday was fun, went to watch the opening ceremony with school.

Went to church today, was pretty early so set up laptop and everything.
After bible study the bus left so yc teacher offered to drive me home,
thanks alot. ^^ As I was saying, tomorrow is the start of term 3. -.-
Have not complete my english homework yet, which i bet many ppl also.
Feels that holiday is ending so quickly. Don't even have the time to relax.
Tomorrow will be going for the AYG thing, see people in hotel ._.
I love so many people nowadays, hohoho, too many to say out.
Amandayap, Adorayuen, Ainslynlim, Benjaminchin, Cassandralim, Cherylquek, Eudoratan, Genlee, Hazimah, Iantolentino, Ivy, Jiaan, Joanneoh, Jasmineng, Jasminelek, Jessicakoh, Khairunnisa, Khairunisaa, Lucaswee, Mingyou, Ryanlow, Sherwyn, Spencer, Shane, Jamielim, Yile, Yiying, Ziminh...

:D

You promised us for the Tshirt.
You promised us for the position badge.
You promised us for the camp.
You promised us we could come back to help.
You promised us you would treat us better.
Was your promise all just a lie? ...

Actually I have not finish my homework, even though I tried my best to.
Today, met Sherwyn, Hazimah & Kimberly at whitesands library. :p
Aft tht bus home with them, reached TJC,
went to see tht guy who keep stare stare sherwyn.
Then took 291 to int met my mother, o.o
Michael Jackson die , so sad :o
Tomorrow there's some programme in school.
Will not be able to go church ):
Meeting Sherwyn at TJC then heading down to ws for lunch :D
God, please help me, please help me to.. find a better one.

11'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.

Recently I read a brother's blog and feels that I share the same problem as him.
Infatuations, I'd been so stubborn, I should have gave up earlier
because God have plans for me, give me a future and a hope, so He would choose the right one for me. Just depend on him and you'll find the right person! I mean..
If you bring your boyfriend/girlfriend home for you father to see, your father as a very experience person will know if the person is right or wrong for you!
God is like your father, he helps you with the right person of yours, always depend on him and you'll find your right person! :D

GIRLS
A: Ainslyn
B: Bernice
C: Claira
D: Debbie
E: Elly
F: Fazlina
G: Gina
H: Hazimah
I: Irna
J: Jia An
K: Kai Lun
L: Li Ting
M: Mandayap
N: Nabeela
O: Ongjingtingjodie
P: Piscillakoh
Q: Qistina
R: Rye
S: Sherwyn
T: Thanita
U: Ulrica
V: Vanessa
W: WaiXin
X: Xin Yi
Y: Yi Ying
Z: Zi Minh

BOYS
A: Alvin
B: Benjamin
C: Caleb
D: Donavan
E: Elvis
F: Farrez
G: Gideon
H: Haziq
I: Ian
J: Joseph
K: Kingston
L: Lucas
M: Matthew
N: Nixon
O: Ongchingkang
P: Pheeraphat
Q: Qixun, donavan
R: Rammel
S: Spencer
T: Teomingyou
U: Louis
V: Kevin
W: Wai Kiat
X: Xiang Zhou
Y: Yu Jing
Z: Zafrul

QUESTIONS
1. Who is your favourite boy out of the group ?
- none (:

2. Are you going out with or crushing on anyone on this list ?
- nope.

3. Who is/are your best friend(s) ?
-girls: Ziminh, Ainslyn?
-boys: Benjamin.


4. Is anyone related to you ?
- Kingston's my brother.

5. Are any people on this list going out with each other ?
- Not sure.

6. If you had to kiss anyone on the list, who would it be ?
- No one.

7. If you had to tell your biggest secret to anyone on this list, who will it be?
- Ziminh?

8. Who is the funniest person ?
- All.

9. Who is the most helpful/kind ?
- Alot.

10. Would A & O make a good couple ?
[Ainslyn & Ongchingkang] Nope I don't think so.
[Alvin & Ongjingtingjodie] I think so?

11. Would E & R make a good couple ?
[Elly & Rammel] Don't think so.
[Elvis & Rye] Yup, both very mature.

12. What would you do if D & S kissed ?
[Debbie & Spencer] Don't think they will ever.
[Donavan & Sherwyn] Stop and stare o.o

13. What would you think if T got H pregnant ?
[Thanita & Haziq] Doubt they know each other.
[Teomingyou & Hazimah] Woah, then idk what to do also.


14. Would P ever hit on J ?
[Priscilla & Joseph] Don't think so cause they all very si wen, civilise.
[Pheeraphat & Jiaan] Nope I do not think so.


15. If B & L were locked in a closet together, what would they do ?
[Bernice & Lucas] Think of a way how to get out.
[Benjamin & Li Ting] Awkward ba.

16. Would F & Q ever go out ?
[Fazlina & Qixun, Donavan] Maybe, but Donavan's attached.
[Farrez & Qistina] Hehe, once I think.


17. Do G & K like each other ?
[Gina & Kingston] they dk each other & kingston's has a girlfriend.
[Gideon & Kai Lun] They don't know each other, but I think they'll make a good couple :x


18. Would C & M make a good couple ?
[Claira & Matthew] Maybe, cause they very close y'know.
[Caleb & Manda] No, cause attitude.


19. Do you think X would ever like N ?
[Xinyi & Nixon] No I think Xinyi have better taste :x
[Xiangzhou & Nabeela] Xiangzhou's attached to Gen ^^

20. Does R talk a lot ?
[Rye] Not really bah.
[Rammel] Yes he's like the most talkative person I've met. -.-


21. Does N still love you ?
[Nabeela] No.
[Nixon] How am I suppose to answer this lol.

22. If K tried to kiss you, what would you do ?
[Kai Lun] Kiss lor, LOL.
[Kingston] I think bit weird cause he my brother.


23. If T hits on you , what would you do ?
[Thanita] LOL. Shake her head till she dies.
[Teomingyou] Mingyou is my lovely, he won't do such things der. :p


24. Would you ever consider F your best friend ?
[Fazlina] Yes, she's the bestest friend anyone can have manzxs.
[Farrez] No?

25. What don't you like about Q ?
[Qistina] She too sexy ler, :o
[Qixun, Donavan] idk him well but i think the way he treats Hazimah. !@#$%^

26. How did you meet H ?
[Hazimah] PRCS.
[Haziq] PRCS also.

27. What song reminds you of E ?
[Elly] Don't have.
[Elvis] Here I am to worship.


28. Do you consider O hot ?
[Ongjingtingjodie] yeap, jodie's the hottest. :p
[Ongchingkang] No.


29. Has I ever done something really wrong to you?
[Irna] nope.
[Ian] he that asshole la always make me cry.


30. How did you get to meet G ?
[Gina] PRCS.
[Gideon] Macedonia.


31. What would you do if you & M never meet ?
[Manda] Die, or live a sad life ):
[Matthew] I will have no papa lor, haha, life will be dull also.

32. What would you do if A & L date ?
[Ainslyn & Lucas] woah, idk leh, congrats them lor.
[Alvin & Liting] Actually I won't do anyt, just bit shock ba.

33. Have you ever seen N cry ?
[Nabeela] Yeah.
[Nixon] No.

34. Would D & K be a good couple?
[Donavan & Kailun] Yea, I think they're great friends.
[Debbie & Kingston] No, first they don't know each other, second kingston alr attached.


36. What's B's favourite colour ?
[Bernice] Blue I think.
[Benjamin] Green or Blue.


37. When was the last time you talk to I ?
[Irna] Forgot.
[Ian] 1 June.


38. What language does H speak ?
[Hazimah] English, Malay, bit chinese, bit hokkien.
[Haziq] English & Malay.


39. Who is O going out with ?
[Ongjingtingjodie] idon'tknow, her boyf?
[Ongchingkang] nobody i think.


40. What grade is Z in ?
[Ziminh] Sec 1.
[Zafrul] Sec 2.

41. Would you ever date with U ?
[Ulrica] dk her well.
[Louis] NO.

42. Where does E live ?
[Elly] TPJC there i think.
[Elvis] Bedok?


43. What's the best thing about C ?
[Claira] She veh caring.
[Caleb] Idk.

44. What would you want to tell R now ?
[Rye] eh you go sec become gangster ler?
[Rammel] LOL, how's your obama status in esss -.-

45. What's the best thing about P ?
[Priscilla] ALOT, countless, she loves God :p
[Pheeraphat] idon't think he has any :x

46. Have you ever kissed W ?
[Waixin] Haha, yeahs.
[Waikiat] I don't know him that well, besides I don't think I'll kiss him even if we're closer. ._.


47.What was the best memories you have with F ?
[Fazlina] I love her, everything was the best memories, yep ^^
[Farrez] Lol i think have but i forgot ler.


48. When's the last time you're going to see S ?
[Sherwyn] LOL, when the world ends.
[Spencer] Heheh, I don't know, not in the near time la!


49. How is V & Y different ?
[Vanessa & Yujing] Erm, one guy one girl bah. characteristic also.
[Kevin & Yi Ying] Kevin is not a christian but Yi Ying is ^^

50.Is Q pretty ?
[Qistina] Yup, she veh hot :p
[Qixun, Donavan] Never see him before.


51. What was the first impression of X ?
[Xinyi] Pretty, civilise.
[Xiangzhou] Humorous, Handsome? :x


52. How did you meet S ?
[Sherwyn] PRCS.
[Spencer] Through Ziminh, PRCS Cio also.

53. Is A your best friend ?
[Ainslyn] Yeah
[Alvin] Not really, but he's a very good senior.


54. Do you hate L ?
[Li Ting] No, she's a nice girl.
[Lucas] No, he's a nice boy.


55. Have you seen D on the last month ?
[Debbie] No.
[Donavan] Ya saw him on CIO last friday.


56. When was the last thing you said to T ?
[Thanita] Forgot liao, i miss you?
[Teomingyou] I got to go liao bye, i think.


57. Have you been to E's house ?
[Elly] No.
[Elvis] No.

58. When's the next time your gonna see J ?
[Jiaan] Erm, tomorrow I guess.
[Joseph] Sunday.

59. Are you close to X ?
[Xinyi] Not really.
[Xiangzhou] can say so ba.

60. Have you been to a movie with M before ?
[Manda] No, but i want go watch with her.
[Matthew] Yeah.

61. Have you ever gotten into trouble with H ?
[Hazimah] No, not really.
[Haziq] No.


62. Would you give B a hug ?
[Bernice] Never -.-
[Benjamin] Maybe


63. When have you lied to C ?
[Claira] No.
[Caleb] No.

64. Is S good with socializing ?
[Sherwyn] Yes she's the first person I see so good in socializing.
[Spencer] I think so haha, he veh funny.

65. Can R and S be together in BGR ?
[Rye & Spencer] No, Spencer will always get scolded haha.
[Rammel & Sherwyn] No, Rammel will always get scolded haha.


66.How is L related to you ?
[Li Ting] good friend in school. :p
[Lucas] my very very good friend.

67. Does Y know Z ?
[Yi Ying & Zafrul] No.
[Yu Jing & Ziminh] Yup.

68. If C betrays you, will you kill him/her/it ?
[Claira] No, i will go jail if i kill.
[Caleb] No, I have nothing for him to betray lol.


69. If W steals your boyfriend, what will you do ?
[Waixin] Erm, give her lor, she veh close to me.
[Waikiat] lets see, slap kick punch him lor, why seyh, dare steal my boyfriend, haha jk. let them gay around with each other ba.


70. If D tells you that he have a crush on you , what will you do ?
[Debbie] Erm, say i got crush on her also.
[Donavan] Lol, i not that despo la, but can consider :p


71. Will/did you and M get into a fight ?
[Manda] Maybe haha, no la, manda my very good friend leh.
[Matthew] Papa very nice, he won't angry me der (:


72. Who does K have a crush on?
[Kai Lun] Me.
[Kingston] He attached liao.

73. If L calls you a bitch , what will you do ?
[Liting] Liting won't like that der la, she so nice.
[Lucas] Angry him, don't talk to him.


74. Whats the relationship between you and E ?
[Elly] Primary & Secondary School senior.
[Elvis] Church bro.

75. Who does Z like ?
[Ziminh] She loves me!
[Zafrul] I not sure.

76. Who is J's best friend ?
[Jiaan] Waixin or Liting.
[Joseph] im not sure.


77. What colour does Y like ?
[Yiying] baby pink.
[Yujing] black ba.

78. Where does F live ?
[Fazlina] Tampines.
[Farrez] Pasir Ris.

79. Did you and N have a fight before ?
[Nabeela] No
[Nixon] No

80. Who is H's best friend ?
[Hazimah] Sherwyn
[Haziq] Not sure.


81. What can u say about T ?
[Thanita] Very nice but crazy at times.
[Teomingyou] Nice boy.


82. How long have u know E & do you like her ?
[Elly] 3 years, since camp that time.
[Elvis] 1 year.

My life does not seems interesting this past few days .
Except for the fact that I had been closer to some of the Sec ones in Band .
Amanda , Jia Ling , Nakia , Cheryl , you know , the usual people .

After band today , went for budget lunch with Amanda & Jamie , (:
On the bus , realized Hidayat and Zafrul are twins , but they do not look identical .
I had just downloaded the music Alvamar Overture into this computer , its really nice .
Thinking of changing my blog's URL , any comments ?
So after eating the budget meal , went to NTUC to buy sugar , for Amanda's mom .
Slacked awhile at macdonalds , then sat the bus home , (:
Completed almost all my homework , left about 3 , in 3 days ? Definitely ! :D

Should I change my blogskin ?
Should I change my blog URL ?
The answer is YES :D

Today was pretty alright, went for band and it ended earlier, wednesday practice cancelled.
Alvin came back how I miss the SYF batch, even though I had only been in the band for a few months, it seems like I've been in there for a few years, haha.
Nowadays the attendance is getting from bad to worse.. I seem to have no one to talk to. Back then at least Alvin bothers to talk to me, and also can go home with SC.
Currently on MSN with Shane, and he says he laugh the whole time lol.
I guess I should really let go, will pray, pray for the right choice, :D
Lets see, why do some people say Christian is superstitious?
They said they used man to write the bible, but had they ever thought that..
If God do not ask man to write the bible, what do he use? animals?
I mean, I am not criticising, oh well forget it :)
And Jesus came down to Earth as a man and not as some animal or something.
Okay okay I should stop, regrets? someone said going churches is evil,
it manipulates your mind, well.. I never regret going to macedonia that night..
I never regret being a christian, because I'm saved by my saviour Jesus. :)
Thank GOD! Daddy I love you :D

Today was pretty alright in church, in fact it was fun and I really thank God for it.
Woke up by an sms, slack at my bed there, hohoh.

Prepared and went to the usual cupwalker, saw jiahui on the bus :D
Went to church and henry was playing the piano with haoshan, so sweet aww.
Then slacked awhile with yile, was reading my Merchant of Venice.
Aft go do sandwich, haha, it was pretty nice, :p
Skipskip, went back to room and slack with yile, I say I veh happy because of him.
She ask who, I said you, she say what talking me lol.
So walk to downtown east after service, take lift then dd teacher don't bear me go lol.
Sit bus then hsh. :p

Came home, bathe and eat, super full cause yile stuffed me with lots of sandwiches.
Thank God, for everything, for my happiness now, for my courage, for him.
" All things are possible through Christ. "

Why am I like this, let me share my problem.
Whenever I visit someone's blog or hear something someone shares about God,
I will want to understand God more, for a short period of time.
But after awhile I will start sinning and not pray all that, I'm such a sinner I confess.
I WANT TO LOVE GOD WITH ALL MY HEART AND NOT LET ANYTHING DISTRUPT THAT. Because God loved me first and that is why I will love him.

For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 3:16

We all know that God's son is Jesus.
Then again when we think back, aren't we God's son and daughter too?
Why would they say only begotten son when we're also his children?
If we see from the triangle of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit,
all of them is God and all of them are of the same rank.
But we cannot say that the Father is the Son or the Holy Spirit is the Father.
In John 3:16, the only son refers to the son in the triangle.
But the son is still God, his rank had not changed at all.
We're God's children, God here refers to all 3 of the above, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
And that is the reason for it. :)
People say that we only have 1 God, how could there be three Gods.
The Father, Son and Holy Spirit is one, like a cone.
A cone has a shape of a triangle but it is not, it is circular in shape instead
it is like drawing a triangle and using a circle to join them together.
Because if only the Father or Son or Holy Spirit alone existed,
there cannot be love, so that is why there are 3, (one of the reasons I heard from Gen).

God gave his begotten son to the world, for us, sinners.
We're not fit to be loved by him, yet before you were even borned, God already loves you.
God loves all of us, the first that was created (Adam) and the very last that will be born.
Now is the time for you to change and love God!
God gave you freedom, and Eve sinned, because God didn't want it to be some love program.
Now I'm gonna question Gen again..
Why was Satan banished by God when he was the highest angel in heaven?

Today go science center and skipped band, (:
Forgot bring themometer and Shevon lent me her spared themometer, thanks a million.
She lend me her " you're my destiny " CD too, Shevon rocks. :D

In the bus was talking about Spongebob, Hi 5 and Powerpuff girl with Syaiful and ZM.
Reach there then started talking to Lucas, o.o
Did some lame things, skipskip. Went for lunch with Adora, ZM, Lucas, Syaiful, YJ and Vanessa.
Bought Macdonalds then went some pavilion and sat.
Sat with Lucas and ZM, and the mcspicy is so spicy lmao.
Went back into science center, while holding Adora's Ipod,
then that Lucas pull me go inside the exhibition, leaving them alone.
Ryan go smash my beloved turtle with that hammer you find in science center.
Ask Lucas go down slide then left him alone there. :p
Aft go make our own perfume hohohs. me and ZM one nicest lor ^^
Go Slack at the toilet there then Lucas kept scaring me and ZM.
We go open the door to staircase then got loud bang ZM tio shock.
Then Lucas kept imitating her, like as if so funny. o.o
Aft in the bus sat with Ryan, kept bullying him :D

Came back school and forced Ryan to remember my birthday.
I Love 1/5'09, they really made my day.
Anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAAN! :D
Add Pic tomorrow, i design one :D

Yesterday's session was fun, reached church pretty early.
After church service went buy fried chicken cube at the taiwan stall there.

Today in the morning woke up at 12.56 -.-
Surprisingly still reached church on time, around 1.50
In the bus, super weird, saw this guy keep staring at me o.o
ZhiHao came up the bus and sat beside me, then that guy still staring.
Reached downtown, then went to church.
Everything was alright, pressed slide and everything.
Henry brought a new friend today, hoho.

Tomorrow is the start of a busy week, band everyday.
Wednesday, science center, dying to meet Minh.

MY BLOG POST SIBEI BORING HOR?

The show buffer so long. Screw it. Today joana sis came my house, early in the morning. So had to wake up like about 10am+. Wash up then just rot down there, use the computer until shuang shuang ^^ Can't wait to go science center on the 17 June which is also jiaan's birthday, (: So anyway, been watching shows nowadays. Holidays so spend the time on the computer. :D
okay, so here's my plan on the next week.
15/6 Monday: Band practice 8am - 12pm
16/6 Tuesday: Band practice 8am - 12pm
17/6 Wednesday: Science center 8am - 5pm (screw it -.-)
18/6 Thursday: Band practice 8am - 12pm
19/6 Friday: Band practice 8am -12pm
20/6 Saturday: Church youth fellowship 3pm - 6pm
21/6 Sunday: Church service 2pm - 5pm
22/6 Monday: Band practice 8am - 12pm
23/6 Tuesday: Band practice 2pm - 6pm
24/6 Wednesday: Band practice 8am - 12pm
25/6 Thursday: Band practice 2pm - 6pm
26/6 Friday: FREE
Really screw band manzxs. But though I screwed that science center, can't wait to meet them. :D And also at least everyday band better than rot down here at home. ;p
Gonna do my homework. hohohoho i'm so guai. (:

Walked to library with jiahui just now for fun.
& sit down there like some idiots reading ghost story book. -.-

Called benjaminchin, thought it was him, turn out to be some ella.
Super paiseh, then call benjamin the house lor.
Been on the phone with benjamin for like 46 minutes?
9 minutes I call him then kup, 37 minutes he call ^^
He say got girl like him and he like the girl, woahs.
benjamin's voice break liao -laughs-

Tomorrow will be the last day I have my free time.
Next week everyday have practice.
Still trying to reach my high high A for a super long time,
and also my chromatic scale, die.
Bring home instrument, rot down there, y'know..

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Jingyi: Nono, you 2 look the same :D
Yiqing: Hahas, qinaide, meet up soon, (:
Jiahui: Thanks.
Claira: Thanks, I really learnt alot sister!
Peien: Little Dar, I miss you too, hohohs!

Recently, I feel that I have neglected God, I am usually thinking of worldy stuffs.
Money, fashion, games, friends, truly, I haven't been putting my life into God.
So, I've decided to create a blog, for myself, and also to preach to others, in the most interesting way. As I had read an older church brother's blog,
"There is so many things that we christian can do but there is only one thing that we cannot do in heaven, that is to preach the gospel to unbelievers. Fellowship,Worship,Singing....ETC you can do in heaven you can even find Paul to bible study with you in heaven, BUT you can NEVER preach to the lost sheep......."
True enough, so thats why, now that we're not yet in heaven, we should try our best to preach.
I know very well that God changes people.
Like a friend of mine in Prcs, she changed from a rebellious young girl to a mature, caring lady. That is truly how in the presence of God can you change.
My Eldest brother, who is a non believer of God, had a conversation with my elder brother.
But right now, I should not share it, I'll leave it up to you all to check my blog about faith, which is located in livejournal yup.
LiveJournal
Will still be updating here often, and should be updating there frequently (:

Mrs Lim's house is big and pretty.
Her baby is so lucky, (:

Met jiahui for breakfast,
at first abit awkward, then okay ler.
yanting came, ordered for her breakfast.
nadhirah and qistina came, with their present.
Paid for the present they giving Mrs Lim.
Then realized forgot bring Ezlink card. -.-
yt follow me go home take, d:
Went to meet the others at MRT station.
Reached Cityhall, met hasikin and nadia.

Sit train go Mrs Lim's house.
On the way, yt told us abt the haunted mrt station.
Named Woodridge, last time was cemetry,
they teared down and built MRT station.
Now they closed it, then the mrt will just pass by.
I saw it 2 times man, if really nothing, close down for what?
Anyway, abit blur cause first time go, lol.
Mrs Lim's baby, Jolyn, so cute lahs.
Talked about secondary school life and all that.
Stayed there about 1h+ then went compass point.
Ate KFC, shared with yanting.
Aft sit train home, (:
Today is fun, makes me think of primary school life.
Makes me think of benjamin, mutamaqin, benedict.

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Alisya: Lovely, you better come, haha, I love you too!
Claira: Hello sister! :)
Adora: Boo.
Debbie: I want meet you too, misses (:
YiQing: Qinaide<3
JingYi: CookieNu'er<3
Jasmine: Good, (:
ShiNing: Got invite me anot?
Melanis: GOOD THAT YOU KNOW HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO US, still pangseh! !@#$%^&*

Hello Hello , Today is damn fun . Especially in church (:

So before church, went to meet steven cause of my ds.

He need to fix his internet, :P

So after that, at first thought of not going church one, but still went.

On the way, thought I was late, so rush.
End up all still slacking, :x

The video not ready, so played blow wind blow.

I got to be the blower 2 times, so the first time I said.

" 吹那些信主的 " - Blow those who believe in God.

Then the second one is,

" 吹比我大的人 " - Blow those who are older than me.

So after that had sermon, which is a video.

After sermon, slacked awhile in church, hohohs.

Hongying jiejie was playing some games with enxun.

I make sure your hand breaks.

Eee, don't take my photo, I shy :x


Oh yeah, Elvin was taking some pictures of us jumping in the process

Me, YiLe, HongYing, Ivy and YiYing.

Then all the photo got obscene pictures of Ivy, o.o

Got one photo I was like kneeling in the air, as said by YiYing.

Aft go eat dinner, YiLe was with me, :P

Ate the super full dinner, bought bubble tea and bus home.

now we're back to the beginning, its just the feeling that no one knows yet..

Hello Hello (: Rot today at home.
Initially want go out with Hui one, but Melanis cannot make it, so nevermind.
Played habbo, then played audi.
Nothing do at home one, tomorrow going school for band,
hope it will be fulfilling (:.
Oh ya, joining 10 anniversary performance,
expected, but the song like damn difficult siohs.
Got alot of accidental keys, but still manage to play the song uhs.
Minh emo, first time, don't know what to do to cheer her up, fazlina method?
I don't know..
Like I say, so many bang-head-on-wall-can-die homework.
Meet up with gans? Dream on, still got CCA worhs.
Next week, finish homework, outing with gans, relax.
Love my holidays this year (:

oh no lahzxsc, I'm sickk ): hopes this fever will go away by tomorrow.
I want to go church on saturday!!
Sneezing and coughing man, what is this.. ):
YiYing ds still haven't fix yet leh.
why is life like that ..

Hello . Life sucks , why should I even be borned .
Minh cried just now , cause of Lucas , first time seeing her cry .
Went to Ning's house with syaiful .
Fazlina sms me just now , not sure if I should post but ..
This was what she said :
Xena , Mr Goh ask us to come and help out for a performance on 8 August . He also ask Rammel and Joel to come .
I am pissed off when I received this msg , I am pissed off .
Firstly , when I went back on Monday , Mr Goh didn't even bothered to talk to me .
Secondly , he think I'm his what ? His dog ahh ? When he want me , he treats me nicely , when he don't want me , he treats me badly .
Thirdly , the other time in sheng hong temple , he said the seniors came back also useless , yes , since we are useless , why still ask us to come back to help ?
Forthly , Why must you tell Fazlina , why don't you tell me personally ? Isn't that more sincere ?
Lastly , I go back to help not because of you , but because of the band members I love .
I used to love the whole band , but now , I only love certain people in the band , but not you I should say . I'm sorry .