It all meant so much, and suddenly its just gone forever.
The day before, we were still talking so happily, so lovingly.
Now, i can only watch your back like i never knew you before.
It hurts, but its over.

Been out for quite a lot of days during the holiday, so hello again blogger! School's reopening tomorrow, not excited or what, gotta really put in my blood and sweat for school starting from tomorrow, if i want to get into a good class! But then again, i've yet to finish my maths and geography homework..

Went for a picnic with YF yesterday! It was rather fun, i went to henry's house in the morning to cook cheese bake rice. Partly for the picnic, partly for my practical exam tomorrow too. Anyway, my cousin came to my house this afternoon, so right after i got home from church, i became her "barbie doll". Heard she took up some make up course and she needs 38 models, so yeah, i had much fun! Except when she plucked out my eyebrow, it hurts very much.

I've moved on already, have you?

Its wednesday morning and i'm all alone sitting here thinking about you.

Dearest blog, good morning, i feel a little miserable, i don't know why, been feeling this way since yesterday. Perhaps i need my friends around me, and since it is a holiday now, i can't help but feel this way. Anyway, i've not done any homework yet, i'm miserably slow and i have to buy foolscap paper later. Oh well, i better get my work done by today.

Went to rot at home yesterday, kept using the computer and then studied science. I am too proud of myself, finish copying 4 chapters of science, the ones that i didn't listen to in class. I can't help but listen to songs that are rather emotional, maybe that reflects my life. I think, i feel very empty inside, i don't know why. Sometimes i think to myself, if you're still here, how would it have been? Are we really.. really over? i know in my previous post, i said that after that, i will move on, but that was what i said last month too, everyday, i tell myself to move on, but its way too hard, way too difficult. Everything feels empty now, maybe i should mend my broken heart slowly, but i really. can't. help. but. miss. you. so. terribly.

I know you will never see this anymore, but I just wanna say, you've been really good. I saw what i wrote on my foolscap yesterday about you. I remember those times when you would send me home despite the risk of being late, and you would call me to comfort me, and make sure i'm happy before i sleep. But was that all... just a lie? i choose not to believe it, because those were the best memories of you, i will not tear it away just like this. I will keep the best side of you in my heart, and throw away those side where you made me cry so miserably, I will keep you in my heart forever, because you're just the best i ever had.

Okay, I'm back to blogger, feels a little new towards this, but who cares. Anyway, I should be coming back to blog regularly, since there ain't much people I can share my feelings with. Today marks the end of term 3, how time flies, it is going to be 2011 real soon.

Should I share my heartfelt feeling about this year? Seriously, this year, I've learnt a lot, from people around me, from God, from every little things that I took for granted, from you ♥ I've learnt that, we must cherish things and never, ever take things for granted, never wait till the "right time" because by then your chance would have been gone already. I've learnt that, we must accept people for who they are because sometimes these are just human nature, no point pin pointing on other's flaws because you're not perfect yourself. I've also learnt that, people that are around you when you need them the most, are those that will be around you no matter what.

Band was fine today, Mr Goh was being funny for saying "Faster lah, just sign la". Because we were trying our best to hide from him while writing the teachers' day card and he just let the cat out of the bag like that, we practically laughed our ass off when he said that, funny indeed. Well, I feel a need to add songs to my blog, if not, it will be boring and then it will just die. And also pictures, but where do I find them? hmmmm..

Oh well, I guess sometimes we just have to move on with life, even though the person you wish to be around with right now is not with you, just continue living. Enjoy every second, because once it's gone, it's gone. I'll keep my memories with you in my heart, sscp, now I really have to let you go and move on, because this is life. Hopefully, I'll be in your memories forever, ♥