Hello. Exams are finally over, after a long one week, it's finally over, thank God. (: Anyway, we're gonna choose our subject combination this year, well, pretty exciting, but it's gonna be real disappointing if you don't get into the class you chose, so i'll pray. (: Been very relaxed and going to be until probably next year. Haha, just hope for the results i want..

I don't have much to say, I'm rather hungry, and perhaps i'm still feeling stress over the results, but i must yield myself to God! yes, that's the way. :) Helped natalie and lucas to settle some problems.. Hopefully my help worked? We never know, because we're not the one that's in a relationship. Now that exams are over, i can't help but to think of what to do all the time, there isn't anymore need to study all the way until next year, and I guess we'll all be very relaxed in school, apart from chinese as we're learning Gong Han. Oh yeah, Sunlaoshi, my condolences to your lost.

Post exams activities! i guess i'll just rot at home, sadly, retardedly. Haha.

It all meant so much, and suddenly its just gone forever.
The day before, we were still talking so happily, so lovingly.
Now, i can only watch your back like i never knew you before.
It hurts, but its over.

Been out for quite a lot of days during the holiday, so hello again blogger! School's reopening tomorrow, not excited or what, gotta really put in my blood and sweat for school starting from tomorrow, if i want to get into a good class! But then again, i've yet to finish my maths and geography homework..

Went for a picnic with YF yesterday! It was rather fun, i went to henry's house in the morning to cook cheese bake rice. Partly for the picnic, partly for my practical exam tomorrow too. Anyway, my cousin came to my house this afternoon, so right after i got home from church, i became her "barbie doll". Heard she took up some make up course and she needs 38 models, so yeah, i had much fun! Except when she plucked out my eyebrow, it hurts very much.

I've moved on already, have you?

Its wednesday morning and i'm all alone sitting here thinking about you.

Dearest blog, good morning, i feel a little miserable, i don't know why, been feeling this way since yesterday. Perhaps i need my friends around me, and since it is a holiday now, i can't help but feel this way. Anyway, i've not done any homework yet, i'm miserably slow and i have to buy foolscap paper later. Oh well, i better get my work done by today.

Went to rot at home yesterday, kept using the computer and then studied science. I am too proud of myself, finish copying 4 chapters of science, the ones that i didn't listen to in class. I can't help but listen to songs that are rather emotional, maybe that reflects my life. I think, i feel very empty inside, i don't know why. Sometimes i think to myself, if you're still here, how would it have been? Are we really.. really over? i know in my previous post, i said that after that, i will move on, but that was what i said last month too, everyday, i tell myself to move on, but its way too hard, way too difficult. Everything feels empty now, maybe i should mend my broken heart slowly, but i really. can't. help. but. miss. you. so. terribly.

I know you will never see this anymore, but I just wanna say, you've been really good. I saw what i wrote on my foolscap yesterday about you. I remember those times when you would send me home despite the risk of being late, and you would call me to comfort me, and make sure i'm happy before i sleep. But was that all... just a lie? i choose not to believe it, because those were the best memories of you, i will not tear it away just like this. I will keep the best side of you in my heart, and throw away those side where you made me cry so miserably, I will keep you in my heart forever, because you're just the best i ever had.

Okay, I'm back to blogger, feels a little new towards this, but who cares. Anyway, I should be coming back to blog regularly, since there ain't much people I can share my feelings with. Today marks the end of term 3, how time flies, it is going to be 2011 real soon.

Should I share my heartfelt feeling about this year? Seriously, this year, I've learnt a lot, from people around me, from God, from every little things that I took for granted, from you ♥ I've learnt that, we must cherish things and never, ever take things for granted, never wait till the "right time" because by then your chance would have been gone already. I've learnt that, we must accept people for who they are because sometimes these are just human nature, no point pin pointing on other's flaws because you're not perfect yourself. I've also learnt that, people that are around you when you need them the most, are those that will be around you no matter what.

Band was fine today, Mr Goh was being funny for saying "Faster lah, just sign la". Because we were trying our best to hide from him while writing the teachers' day card and he just let the cat out of the bag like that, we practically laughed our ass off when he said that, funny indeed. Well, I feel a need to add songs to my blog, if not, it will be boring and then it will just die. And also pictures, but where do I find them? hmmmm..

Oh well, I guess sometimes we just have to move on with life, even though the person you wish to be around with right now is not with you, just continue living. Enjoy every second, because once it's gone, it's gone. I'll keep my memories with you in my heart, sscp, now I really have to let you go and move on, because this is life. Hopefully, I'll be in your memories forever, ♥

遗失的美好

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

TRYING TO UPLOAD PICTURE TO THE COMP D:

Being single means that you have the authority to talk to any guys you like. Being single means that you don't have to be worried about anyone's feeling. Being single means that you can lean on anybody you wish to, no matter guy or girl. Being single means that you can ogle at hot guys/gals and start crushing on them. Being single means you don't have to be jealous over anybody. Being single means you can have all the time for your friends, and for those who care about you. Being single means that you won't have any disappointment when a new text message is received and it's not from him/her. Being single means that you don't have to groom yourself so perfectly for your special one. Being single means you won't have the disappointment and sorrows when he cannot fetch you home/pei you/go out with you/call you/text you. Being single means that you don't have to text him all the time when you're home. Being single means that he cannot come into your life and turn it upside down. Most importantly, being single means that no one can ever penetrates through your heart, plays with it, breaks it, and leave you shattered alone there.

Its been 7 days..

i don't know why, but i miss you a lot, friend. i know i shouldn't be, but i really have no idea why i miss you. Sometimes, i can't help but go to your profile, and see what new things you have, whether you still talk about me, whether you still remember me.. i know you're quite temperamental sometimes but why does this happen, i mean, we were so close like just 5 days before, and then everything changed. Sherman told me i shouldn't care, but i really can't, all the time in band, i feel that i should talk to you, but i already made up my mind, i really cannot take this. its like, sometimes, memories of us just flash back, it just hurts so much to lose you, i remember the first time, i ask you about your hair, then i don't know how we can suddenly become so close, and just 4 months later, everything is back to the beginning. i have so much to say, i have so much i want to tell you, but i don't know if you ever want to talk to me again, i really don't know, i miss you...

It has been a long time since I last updated.
So many things happened but I guess they are not fatal.
I got back my results, some were better than expected,
and some, it was such a let down.
But i shall learn from it, yeah?
The band is going for a competition in 4 months time.
And I'm still struggling to finish Monmouth Overture,
desperately trying to play the very first page of Novena.
Is this life? Its like just a routine everyday.
A dumb routine i have to keep up with in order to live.
I'm sick and tired of this unfulfilling routine.
I hope surprises comes by, like what Kah Onn said.
And i'm missing you every second, everyday..